| Ummm |
[Nov. 2nd, 2006|02:56 am] |
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So ricky's dead,A dead beat gi shot him today..Huge ordeal there cop's..Crime scene investigator guy and more cop's...So yeah fuck them they can all died (gi's) and go to hell..Espc that cock sucker...SO yeah blood's all ovah meh,Eye's still hurt,And tummy hurt's from the codeine now...Had tuh do it..Havent done anything in a long time..So..Here i am...Ummm..Yup..FUCK PEOPLE,FUCK YOU,FUCK EM ALL |
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| Been ahwile |
[Jul. 11th, 2006|02:54 am] |
since i last wrote in here to be honest i fucking forgot i even had an account lol..but umm what's new gotta go to my trial tomorow that outta be fucking fun cant wait...met this wicked hott chick,been chillin wit her n cisco alot lately that's been fucking awesome been doing alot of fun shit...but there's sticky thing's that have to do with it all though which bring's the mood down a little bit but that's ok it'll be fine.got a call from the bm today she's a dumb whore and can go fuck off and die in a ditch somewhere..lol..but what's new everyone feels the sameway about that dont you,you fuckers!
umm got nothing to say bored as shit and im going to bed so peace the fuck out...
fuck you and have a nice day world! |
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| In Memory |
[Feb. 2nd, 2006|06:05 pm] |
Some of the ugliest things took the longest time to make
And some of the easiest habits are the hardest one's to break
And I'm not asking for value nor the pain
But I am asking
For a way out of this lie
Because I can't wait for you
To catch up with me
And I can't live in the past
And drown myself in memories
Welcome to nowhere and finding out where it is
And fixing your problems and starting over agin
Your feeding your ego
With what you can see outside
And your killing yourself
For not speaking your mind
Because I can't wait for you
To catch up with me
And I can't live in the past
And drown myself in memories
In memory |
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| HMmmmmm |
[Feb. 2nd, 2006|05:53 pm] |
Well like fucking always there really aint shit new in hurr...ummm...jaydon rolled over that's pretty fucking sweet i think n he talked to me on the phone the other day well he didnt talk he kinda gagggoooed it..but it's all good...alex has been staying with me lately we been chillin he's a bitch..lol..
umm we hit a snowbank yesterday actually twice..lol..i was drivin n went to turn down this street and kinda slid and did a 180 ass end hit a snowbank n just kept driving nothing to impressive but it was fuckking fun...chad's leaving today to go back to utica so that fucking blow's been chillin over there alot lately..n been talking to sarah alot lately too..which is sweet since i was finally able to fucking get ahold of her...fucking babymama's what chu gun do wit em ya heard?..lol..idk..im bored...im trying to get her to come back up here so well duh so i can see the babyboi..that would be nice ya kno...and umm...that's bout it nothing to fucking new really..went snowboarding 2days ago that was fun gonna try n make time n do it today also..but newho..gotta run now..gotta get to ged..:-)...holla at cha boy..... |
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| life changes by a single call |
[Jan. 28th, 2006|06:48 pm] |
damn man..i dont even kno where to start..well im doing good on probation and my cars gettin fixed monday :-),cant wait for that..and umm my job is going iight applied to 2 others though hopeing to get a second or even a third going...got my homephizzles here were gettin a 4bdrm that's hott..umm and cant leave this out cant give details but here...i got the best fucking phone call of my life yesterday the best news anyone could ever and i mean ever fucking ask for..and well im proud,and happy,and fucking yeah..lol..got some more tat's done finally..and well now got a friend drawing up a new one for the grand new new's..:-)..and well umm i dont kno what much more to say other then im fucking lovin it right now...bought some shit that i cant even use.lol..hmm wonder what it could be..anywho..gonna go catch a movie now with some peoplez...so holla at cha boy sometime...
*thank you for giving me the news of a lifetime,i promise that ill for always be there |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 24th, 2005|01:32 pm] |
| [ | my mutha fuccin feelins |
| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | Da shyt im listenin to |
| | ShineDown -Save me | ] |
WEll it's been awhile since i been on this thing..so i guess i could say a few thing's that are new..well now i am back in Ny i dont kno for how long..depend's on how long i feel like staying..this place is a shit hole and i think everyone should try n get away if they ever have the chance...im prolly only here for another 2 week's it depend's me n greg were offerd a $16.00hr job working in the shipping department of nemf (new england motorfrieghts) it's a union job so that's pretty fucking sweet they told us to call as soon as we get back..and i got my car now that's better and it's perfectly legal..lol..that's even more better..ummm i finally talked to someone i havent talk to in a lil while that was pretty cool..it was great to hear that the lil man is doing good..i been wondering about him for awhile so that short convo went good..it would be nice to see him again..but that's not my place anymore so deal with it..lol...umm i dont really kno what else to say there isnt much and other shit i cant really remember..well now that everyone know's im back in town for a bit if ne one want's to visit they kno where i am..so come around sometime..it would be nice to see some faces..:-)...so talk to u later...
Well I've got a candle,
and I've got a spoon.
I live in a hallway
with no doors and no rooms.
Under a window sill they all were found,
a touch of concrete within the doorway
without a sound.
Someone save me if you will,
and take away all these pills.
And please just save me if you can
from my blasphemy in my wasteland.
How did I get here?
And what went wrong?
Couldn't handle forgiveness,
now I'm far beyond gone.
And I could hardly remember
the look of my own eyes.
How could I love this,
a life so dishonest,
It made me compromise |
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| It's Been Awhile |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|06:42 pm] |
| [ | Da shyt im listenin to |
| | Akon-Soul Servivor | ] |
Since my last post...been a long fucking time..let's see what's new with me..well there's a lot but i dont really feel like fucking sitting here typing all the shit out...but i'll say a few..1. me n greg n carrie n rob T..decided we would go on a funfilled weekend trip to Nh&Boston well that didnt turn out to fun the trip there was great and well 2hrs after we got there greg's clutch burnt out..so now were kinda stuck...rob n carrie left n went to vermont the next night to see rob's sister or w/e then head back to ny..and me n greg remain here..lol..it's been alright been getting drunk been seeing alot of fucking friend's that i havent seen in 3yr's it was great to see chris i havent seen him since he got his throat cut so that was a good thing to be able to see him...went to frog's house a couple night's ago n got wasted that was fucking great also..halloween was alright didnt feel good so i took the kid's out trick-or-treating n then me n greg just walked the town aimlessly not really looking for nething to do but just walking n talking that was ok..havent really talked to ne 1 in awhile aint got ne 1 to really confide in so i got some shit out..umm...wish i was kinda back in NY...but fuck that u kno aint shit there for me..and i just keep running into people i dont want to see nemore..life there sux..so well i moved...well me n greg moved..lol..got my own car now..that was fucking fast..umm life's turning out for the best but ill b back in ny this weekend i think maybe next not sure..umm..idk...
sometime's i miss u then i think...wtf was i sitting around for! |
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| Lost.... |
[Sep. 16th, 2005|11:39 am] |
| [ | Da shyt im listenin to |
| | Lost Inside-ShineDown | ] |
This day could be the worst one yet
I just won't relax I can't catch my breath
Because I'm sick and tired of you'll be fine
Well how do you know, can you read minds
So take while you can so you can meet demands
My insanity is what you thrive on
So rip it from my soul, so everyone will know in the end
We were never friends
Have you ever felt lost inside
so unloved within that you almost died
Have you ever stepped out of the light and realized
there's a stranger inside
Don't push your ignorance on me
I'm not unrehearsed to your jealousy
And I know you think I don't see the signs
Well how do you know, do I look blind
So take it while you can so you can meet demands
My breakdown is what you thrive on
So rip it from my soul so everyone will know in the end
I'm the break you're the bend
Have you ever felt lost inside
so unloved within that you almost died
Have you ever stepped out of the light and realized
there's a stranger inside
just a good song so i posted......umm bye.....
i just wanna be a "simple man"... |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|10:49 am] |
| [ | Da shyt im listenin to |
| | The Patient-Tool | ] |
well the feeling hasnt changed since lastnight only thing is that the pill's wore off..and now i feel fucking sick...too much shit in one day and too much shit consumed..that's for fucking sure..well hopefully today get's better...i gotta call her on her luch..so let's see how it goes from there..hopefully go's good..that's what im wishing for...but umm newwho..im still alive people...so umm yeah
i love u...
At,Anthony's..... |
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| well |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|01:32 am] |
| [ | my mutha fuccin feelins |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | Da shyt im listenin to |
| | Simple Man-ShineDown | ] |
today wasnt such a great day...had heard i guess u could say the worse new's of all lately...amber..well...basically broke up with me...yeah it's shitty..hurt's..love her soo fucking much...whish there was something i could do or say to fix it..guess i just gotta deal..even tho i dont want to..dun want to be with out her...i miss her already and i miss damon also..even tho he wasnt my son..he was myfriend..my bestfriend almost..lol..it's weird..idk..i miss her and love her..n just hope she change's her mind...if your reading this amber..im sorry for everything..and..idk..i miss u..alot..i love you...on another note..i took the rest of my darvacet's and drank a lil not too much just chilled at my mom's house n drank some beer's and got ahold of some more pill's to ease the shit..since that seem's like the only answer at this present moment..because that's how i cope with shit that i dont want to deal with face on...and then went to anthony's to hang out with him and my buddy chad...and well...not much more pills here but just a lil more...a bunch of stay awake's tho...i kno i shouldnt be doing these pill's and so many of them...but honestly...wtf else do i have?..my friend's n that's it..i aint got nothing else..so fuck it right...to live is to die..so fuck it were all destined for the inevitable...so hopefully thing's go better tomorow..which i bet they wont...thing's wont be right for atleast a couple day's..not untill i "know" what it is that's going to happen...so untill then my friend's..ill be around..catch u all on the flipside...amber if u ever need nething,nething at all u kno how to get ahold of me..just call salsa ill get the message sometime or another......love u baby..im sorry..:-(
At Anthony's......... |
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